We are starting a fresh new year, in a fresh new (to us) house, with fresh new opportunity at our fingertips. It feels like a great way to be starting a new year.
I am a lover of goals, fresh starts, and clean canvases.
Some things we’re working on over in this neck of the woods:
Coming from a place of authenticity in all aspects of my life – motherhood, work, relationships. In my late twenties I am learning to finally rely on my own instinct, and trust my own opinion. Be okay with things the way I like them, even if no one else does. My own voice, style, path. Be myself completely and fully, coming from a place of love, and not letting insecurity drag any energy from that space.
Connecting more with each of my children in the way they best connect and feel loved. This looks different for all of them, and I hope to pay attention, especially as they grow, in the ways they want to connect with me. Harlo likes chatting late at night, Stella enjoys getting out and about with me, Grae loves my complete undivided attention, and Major loves extended rocks in the rocking chair before bed while I sing him his favorite songs, or a good wrestling sesh. I hope to love my children in the ways they receive love. Always!
One thing that 2017 presented me with as a new challenge is not having time for ME, my work, my passions. This past year motherhood consumed more of me than ever before. I have always been a worker-bee. I hit the ground running when I got my first job at 14, and balanced two to three jobs and a side hustle or two constantly as a teen and young adult. Working was the first thing I was good at, and motherhood was the second. I’ve had a balance of the two for all these years, and this past year it seemed to come crashing down. I had to hand over one for the other a lot, and that stressed me out. I mean, I spent maaaany nights crying myself to sleep while wrestling with God about what I should be doing with my life. I also learned, that that is my process… I hold onto every last ounce of my control before I have a meltdown and let go and let God, which I hope to be better and more gracious about walking forward. Sometime in the year though, I realized that this season was passing and wouldn’t last forever. There have been years of motherhood I’ve been stay-at-home 100% and others I’ve worked mostly from home full-time. This year needed me home a lot, and I’m grateful for the time, and for the simplicity it created for my life. I needed to learn that my worth is not equal to my productivity or how hard or much I work, and it’s okay to have those years of simplicity and service that motherhood so readily provides. Always always learning in this motherhood journey!
I’ve also been learning a lot about what gives me energy, and what drains me of energy. This has been such valuable information, and this year I hope to do more of what is LIFE GIVING to me, and be aware of what is draining me. Improving myself and evolving all the time.
New house, new year, but the same ol’ blossoming me.
Happy New Year!
♥ the mama