“The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.”
Mother’s day always gets me thinking about what an honor it is to actually be a mother. To me, it’s the most important job in our existence. When my girls are grown, I want them to always know how privileged I feel to be their mom.
I loved being able to carry my children. I thank God for that opportunity every single night. While I didn’t enjoy every day of my pregnancies, I sure did enjoy them. I felt like a Goddess when I was pregnant. I felt like I was called to do the most important job in the universe, and I was. Mr. Miller was always so loving and attentive and sensitive to me when I was pregnant with our girls. I have so many fond memories in that time. I often say that my pregnancy with Stella was the happiest time in my life. My days were filled with studying birth and caring for my own vivacious one year old. I attended regular birthing classes and midwife appointments with my husband. I think we both felt the importance of that experience both for our marriage and for our lives personally. I knew I was doing something greater than myself and serving a purpose I was meant to serve. Brady understood and respected that and together we were able to bond on a level that was greater than we had ever imagined. Harlo’s birth showed me there was more to me than I previously knew, there was a woman inside of me who was divine and great and worthy of such a calling. Stella’s birth gave birth to that woman and I am forever grateful to my two girls for giving me that. It’s just so miraculously calculated! I had to be this woman to raise these girls, but I had to give birth to these girls to be this woman. It’s what feeds my soul in knowing there is a God who knows us as individuals and has set out a plan for each of us.
I am still so grateful for that time I was able to nurse my children and so look forward to the opportunity to have more babies with Mr. Miller to rely on my motherly body.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the women in my life and the women who read this blog. I hope you know how divine and beautiful you are!