I think I’ll be having a few hefty homeschool posts coming, because it is a LOT.
I wanted to address a few questions I’ve been asked, because most of them were questions I had myself!
First of all, Why homeschool?
Believe it or not, I am not TRYING to be the most unconventional person I know. I have just simply always felt guided and prompted, and I’ve always been willing to do what is right for my own family, regardless of what is right for anyone else’s. Well, that’s much of the attitude that lead me to homeschool.
I find that the longer I search homeschool, the more reasons I gather of why it’s a right fit for my family. So this is a complex question to answer. But the main reasons that kept me circling back around to homeschool is that I, first of all, want to. People who say “Oh good for you – I would NEVER.” Okay… but I would. I want to do this. I am a stay-at-home mom, I have the time and the creativity, the the will TO do this, first of all. So I guess having a willingness in my heart is the first thing.
Also, we all start homeschooling, really. What do we do with kids 0-4 before they start pre-k? We teach them at home! I loved this part of motherhood, and I feel that homeschooling is more of a continuation of teaching my little ones the way I always have.
Some perks for my specific family for homeschooling are: teaching with a foundation of God, and faith. Being able to freely travel and learn as we explore. We have worked hard to get our businesses in a place where we could travel while we work, and now with homeschool, it feels as if the world has opened up. No interruptions of our family connections, sibling relationships, or stray in what we teach at home. Being able to live more intentional, simply, and at our own pace.
I could go on and on, but those are the first things.
I am also going to talk about something I have been insecure about for years: I am a terrible (public) school mom.
I have always been a pretty confident mother, I will talk freely about my parenting styles and motherhood journey.. but I’ll tell you, nothing made me feel more terrible as a mother than having my kids in school. It was an impossible list of “never good enough” which resembled so closely my own personal school life. They really didn’t care that I read to my kids for 20+ minutes every night since they were fetuses… unless I remembered to check and sign every day of the reading log. The mornings were rushed and chaotic, much earlier than we are naturally set up for. The days were long, especially for the siblings who were waiting all day to see each other. I cried EVERY SINGLE night before school, after any break. I hated feeling like the worst mom in the class because I could NEVER seem to find that damn homework packet on Friday morning when it was due.
Not to mention the extra this and that, sometimes our week would feel like all I was doing was RUSHING to get supplies or pick up this or that for the next thing. Simply put, it was such a faster pace of life than we were used to – but more IMPORTANTLY: than we wanted. I never realized that was really a thing until I stepped back for a minute. Our life was being dictated to us, and it wasn’t the life we wanted. I didn’t want to be the best at doing paperwork and being organized and fast enough to keep up – I wanted to be the kind of mom who was SLOW enough to keep my kids from being raised in the car. Who had time to jump on the tramp, read another chapter because it’s too good to put down. I want to be unscheduled enough that we have days at home to have down time. That my kids will have an opportunity to curl up on the couch with a book, or take a walk together on a quiet afternoon. When I think back to my happiest times as a mom, it was our slowest and simplest of days that filled my heart the most. The days we had time to soak in the beauty. The days I didn’t cry to the Lord, “I can’t keep up, God! If I’m supposed to enjoy it, why is it flying by too quickly??”
I struggled with this, even when my friends didn’t. I felt so alone in this struggle, because literally EVERYONE ELSE I knew seemed to not struggle at all. My friends seamlessly juggle four kids in four different activities while they run this program, or volunteer there, and still manage to get their kids to participate in the non-required science fair! Barf. That was NOT me, sister. Don’t let my love of motherhood fool you into thinking I’m any kind of super hero in that way. But I do have my own strengths, and as I have stepped into what feels more natural to me, I have found many strengths, actually. Strengths that will benefit me as I continue to raise and teach my children.
It has been a breath of the freshest air, finding other moms that are like ME. That also thrive in a slower paced life. That aren’t searching for the “bigger, better, more” aspect in their family lives. Women who are leaning into “slow, simple, grounding” ways of the world. The ways that fill my heart, and help me to understand our Creator.
What it comes down to for me is faith. I genuinely have faith in a God who created me for a purpose, I believe the pullings in my heart have a purpose. I believe the children I’ve been blessed with came to me for a reason, and that I have a divine and eternal responsibility to them. I am in charge of my own family, and I will mother them to the best of my own abilities, as I ask God to guide our family. Motherhood is a partnership with God, and He will not fail us mothers as we seek Him.
Faith is the foundation of our family, our lives, and it will also be the foundation of education for my children, and I am grateful for this opportunity to grow in faith. To do what I feel I have been called to do.
(Can I get an amen?? I mean, I guess if I’m gonna preach, I’ll preach! ;) )
I love being a mom. I love having my kids at home. I enjoy this work… sure it’s work – honey, motherhood is serious work. But this work feels like the work that was woven into my soul. You know the kind? So for now, or forever, I will be grateful for this stolen bit of time for my family to build a foundation of what matters the very most to us in these years we have close together.
Next I’ll be addressing some of my worries of homeschool, and fears that held me back. — until then, I’m wishing all of you moms starting school, sending off to school, or beginning a new path all together the best of luck.
May you prioritize your time this year in a way that brings true happiness to your lives!