Mr. Miller and I often talk about how we can do better, be happier, live fuller. I love this part of our relationship. I love feeling like Mr. Miller brings out the best in me.
Yesterday I was telling him that when I feel down or unhappy, I try to think of a time I was the very happiest.. I anchor myself to that time and try to recreate those feelings. Was I feeling very spiritual in that time? Was I feeling very domestic and peaceful at home? Was I doing fun things with my family? Then I try to bring those aspects into my current life and it always helps snap me out of a funk.
I was curious, “When is a time that you felt like we were the very happiest? Our family was good, our marriage was good, our spirituality was good..” I asked my Mr. Miller.
“I think right now.” he answered.
As he said these words, I could so clearly see God’s hand in our lives. This year has been SO FULL of highs and lows, and we really have found ourselves in such a happy time after a stormy season. This happiness has been hard-won and very deserved. I have learned so much about forgiveness this year – something I didn’t realize I needed to understand so well until I was brought face-to-face with it. Forgiveness of others, forgiveness of my past, forgiveness of myself. Mr. Miller has been my anchor as I have dealt with a lot this year, and now it seems that the things that weighed so heavy don’t weigh as heavy anymore. I am lighter now, and I am better for my trials.
I am so grateful for the atonement. This is what the atonement is –> forgiveness. Through the atonement, we can forgive. Through the atonement, we can be forgiven. Through the atonement, we can live happy lives despite problems, or worry, or stress, or tough relationships. I have really learned that this year and my testimony of God is better for it.
This year was a learning/growing year, and I am hoping that next year I can share the faith, knowledge, and lessons I’ve learned.
(photo credit : ashley flowers photography)